Sober Saturday: Faith Driven

What drives you?….

A question that I realize can mean many things so of course, we’ll explore what I’m talking about a little.

 

Some of you know that I’m an aspiring actress. Always have been! Well, recently I’ve was blessed with several offers for several positions in theater that will span from now through this Summer. Great! I know… IM SO EXCITED!! In addition to those Theater jobs I was also offered a position in Hospitality. I was a bit apprehensive because I’ve done hospitality before and although I love interacting with people IM OVER IT! It always comes back to the fact that it’s just not what I REALLY want to do. I was still excited about the income I could generate with all of these new opportunities I had been blessed with AND what the increase in my bank account would mean for other areas of my life. I could move, help out more, FINALLY start a new initiative I’ve been trying to introduce to the blog, etc, etc, etc. The only thing is… This new hospitality job would eventually have conflicting hours with my sometimes VERY demanding Theater schedule BUT it is consistent in many ways that I need at the time. So, after praying and thinking and obsessing over what to do- I quit the hospitality job. Yep! Only 4 days in and I was done. I was very upset about it… I felt like I’d wasted the time of so many people and I just felt bad. I knew it was right though… So I marched forward with the decision.

A few of the first thing most people ask is “Will you make enough money doing Theater?” “Are you still going to be able to move?” Blah, blah, blah.

Honestly my answer is “I don’t know” I’m trusting that God will work it out for me. And I don’t know how or when… But I know HE WILL! I’ve said it a million times and I’ll say it again, I’m a faith driven person. Gods promise is enough for me to lean on.

 

I know many of you are probably wondering what this has to do with staying sober. Well, like me, some of you may have decided you aren’t going back to where you were. You’ve prayed about it, talked it out, obsessed over it and you’ve decided that every move you make will be a step in the right direction for your life, your career, your family, your dreams…  Be strong enough to tell temptation NO when outside distractions come and paint a pretty picture of what one moment of your life can be like. Look at the big picture… How will you feel after? How do you feel even going into it? If you can say that the big picture regarding addiction is a good feeling then this post isn’t for you. Do what it takes to make big picture changes. Don’t be worried about what other people say because everybody just won’t understand. Find something good to be driven by. And don’t allow it to be materialistic, monetary, or a temporary fix. Those things will fail you every time!

 

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Dont you dare look back! Keep going! Keep pushing!

There is life after addiction!!

Go find yourself!!

Yesterday you said Tomorrow…

Hey guys, I’ve posted this pic before… I’m not sure exactly what the message was before, it may even be exactly the same as this! I don’t know! Lol. I came across the pic and the message (I added a line or two) that is below on my Facebook page and was inspired by my own words. I LOVE WHEN THAT HAPPENS!! (It one of the reasons I’m a card hoarder) Things we’ve gone through already and the messages or lessons we’ve gained from them can still help us (and others) now!! It’s okay to take a look back and see where you were and how far you’ve come! The same thing that helped you before, whether it was something as serious as not knowing how you’re gonna get through life or just inspiration for the day, it can help you AGAIN! Get inspired! Even if you have to take a look back at some old stuff!! Do it today… Time waits for no one.

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What are you waiting for?

…There may be a million people in your city that want the same things you want but your dedication to it even when you dont feel like it is what will set you apart! Today is the best day to get started… Tomorrow they could be done casting for the part. Tomorrow they could have already found a lead dancer. And you could gain 5 more pounds this week putting that diet off until “next Monday”… Lol. You have to ride the bus and it’s raining outside? You better buy some cute rain boots! It’s too hot? Find some shade and a cold bottle of water and quit letting things you will NEVER be able to control keep you from getting whats yours. You don’t need a New Year to have a “New You!” Go get it TODAY! No more tomorrows ya’ll… Hugs, kisses, and a whole bunch of love- jnb

 

 

 

Flashback Friday

Hey guys!! I am not a loyal participant in “Throwback Thursday” or “Flashback Friday” like some… However, I will occasionally go back and re-post something that I feel needs to be seen or something that didn’t get a ton of views.

Go ahead, check out this vid! I don’t know about yall but sometimes all of the negativity on social media and mess being shown on TV- I get exhausted and I feel like a fish out of water! I NEED POSITIVITY!! There are some very inspiring things in this vid so don’t be afraid to press play. Muah!

Sober Saturdays

Hey Guys!! I hope your holiday is going well…

By now most followers of the blog know that I am extremely passionate about seeing lives restored from addiction (of any kind) because of my own experience with drug and alcohol abuse. I’ve decided to do something called “Sober Saturday” where people can send in their personal experience with drugs, alcohol, gambling, or any addiction.

In the stories/testimonies you can include how those experiences changed your life (good and bad), things that helped/hurt your progress etc… OR if you are the friend or family member of someone who has an addiction you can tell how its affected your relationship and tell about the addiction from YOUR point of view… just whatever your story is! Its important for people to get different point of view’s because for some addicts hearing what another addict is going through wont help… but maybe hearing what the addicts daughter who is nearly the same age as their daughter went through will help. The thing that people don’t realize is all of our personal failures and triumphs can help someone else in some way. And, THAT is the reason that although I’m a pretty private person, I will willingly (VERY willingly) discuss the things I’ve been exposed to because of addiction. So, first up is my story. Or, pieces of it. Lol. It’s how I felt when I was in some of those situations.

I’m really hoping that these stories and testimonies can help someone struggling with addiction begin the process of getting clean and the process of mending broken relationships.

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEND IN YOUR STORY EMAIL JAMIEDREAMSBIG@GMAIL.COM AND A NEW STORY WILL BE POSTED EVERY SATURDAY.

Restoration

(Heavy Sigh)

I’m a pretty private person. But, being private doesn’t help anyone. Being transparent does. And the goal here is healing! Not just for you but for me too! So here it is.  Why I am the way I am. Why I’m so passionate about seeing lives restored. This is my story.

I was born to two heroin addicted parents. From what I remember I had a good childhood! I was very loved and I was spoiled rotten with love! My dad used to carry me on his shoulders and sneak me candy and my mom was (and still is) truly OBSESSED with me! : ) There was a lot of arguing though… but I remember thinking that was normal. I remember knowing that something was up with them and their friends… I was the sweetest kid EVER but I was mean to their friends… I knew that they weren’t the best people to be around. But I didn’t know why… I couldn’t pinpoint it.

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 In my little Jamie mind I knew that when they came over my parents were normal and when they left my parents were what I thought was tired or sleepy or sad. I remember seeing my dad pace the floor in slow motion and my mom drift off to her own little world. They were high. I knew that something wasn’t right but I NEVER thought it would be drugs. One day I was outside playing having fun in my perfect no problem/ no responsibility 4th grade world and my mom called me inside. I was about to grow up way more than I knew. She took me in the back room of my sisters two bedroom apartment where we had just moved after being evicted from our own apartment. She told me that she and my father were addicted to drugs and that they were going to rehab for a while. I was going to live with my oldest sister. My whole world was crushed. I had been learning how to “Just say No”  and my parents were addicts! I was very confused and upset that they were leaving me. I didn’t understand why they couldn’t just not do it anymore. I didn’t understand that addiction is an illness. A disease. The cycle of rehab continued… They would go in dirty, come out clean, and relapse. Our lights would be off, my flute was having an affair with the pawn shop, and the fights and screaming matches continued.  When I was in 10th grade my mom had a dirty UA and she was going to rehab for a third time.  I was going to live with my oldest sister. And my dad was staying at the house that was my Grandmother’s. That is until the family decided that he wasn’t going to turn my Grandmother’s house into a trap house. He was now out on the street. I cant even begin to explain the worry in my 14 year old mind. Where would he sleep? What would he eat? Was he safe? Would he die out there?  I remember PRAYING that he would go to jail or calling his parole officer to tell her that he wasn’t clean. Well, my prayers were finally answered and he went to jail. I still Thank God for that until this day because I know he was headed to his grave. I am positive of that. They came home clean a year or so later and after about a  week… they were back pacing floors in their own world. It wasn’t fair! Why did I have to grow up so fast? Why were they picking drugs over me?! My mom wasn’t on probation anymore… she wouldn’t have to pass anymore UA’s. And my dad celebrated his last day on parole. Was this ever going to end?! Well… yeah. It would. My Mom hasn’t done any drugs in about 6 or 7 years!! (IM SO PROUD OF YOU GIRL!! NOBODY BUT GOD!) And although at times my Dad struggles with it, he is light years from where he was then. (C’MON DUDE WE’RE PUSHING FOR YOU) They aren’t together anymore… but they are better a part. Addiction has affected my life more than I will ever be able to put into words but, I wouldn’t change a thing. God knew that all of it would make me the mature, responsible, caring, optimistic, tough loving, encouraging, SCARED OF DRUGS, etc. person that I am today and I really thank him for it all! I love the person that I am and I know that I wouldn’t be all of me if it weren’t for the affect addiction had on me. I will have many, many, many posts about  Restoration. About the disease addiction is, how it affects families AND how it affects the addict. About how we need to support our family and how addicts need to understand the hurt families are feeling. There is a conversation that needs to happen and a healing that needs to take place. At the age of 9 I NEVER thought my Mom would tell me she was addicted to drugs and at 20 I NEVER thought she would tell me she was clean. Restoration in possible!!

 

 

So… this is all I’m looking for. Even if you don’t have the words to say… feel free to email me and we can set up something and I will write it. If you have been addicted to something and now you’re free you KNOW how good freedom feels!! Spread the feeling! God is not just allowing (Yes, its ALL allowed!) things to happen and you to be blessed and set free for you to keep it to yourself. Email Me!!

Without work its dead

 

Hello my loves!! Its been a while… I really try to do posts when I feel like God is giving me something to talk about instead of just rambling about nothing- Because trust me, I can talk!. The purpose of this website is to inspire (in one way or another) so it is sometimes difficult for me to do posts because sometimes even I, yes me- the chick with an inspirational blog, have a difficult time being moved by situations to a point that I want to share it. So with ALL of that being said, the thing that’s been on my mind lately is faith.

Pretty much everyone that knows me knows that I am a faith driven person to the FULLEST!! I am!! If there is something that I feel like God has promised me or revealed to me is mine- I’m going for it! I don’t have to see a way or really even care to try to figure it out. I jump in head first and really go for holding up my end and then allow God to do what I cant. I just want to really encourage some of you… there may be something you want- a new job/career, a home, a family, to mend broken pieces with loved ones…- Even if you don’t see a way for these things to surface start living your life with faith. Knowing that God will work it all out perfectly in the end and not worrying about how. Trying to figure out the way often distracts you from what it is that YOU should be doing in the equation to get you where you want to be because as it is written “Faith without works is DEAD” And that just means that you can pray and believe all you want but God is not going to just let everything fall in your lap… you’ve got to put the work in. In high school I participated in Performance Choir and my teacher, Melanie Bivens, constantly drove that into our heads… You cant come to school praying that you pass your Math test knowing you haven’t studied let alone even opened the book. It became SO redundant, SERIOUSLY!! But I am so thankful that I had that kind of information being drilled into my head because I finally got it!! If you do your part, God will surely do the rest. If you’ve worked really hard and saved your money for your new car but have some bad things on your credit, don’t forget to take faith with you to the car dealership because THAT is the kind of work God does… Are you dealing with someone who you love but is just IMPOSSIBLE to get along with or understand? Do your part… figure out what YOU can change to help the situation use faith for that other person. I’m not gonna beat this over your head in just one post because honestly, faith is such a big part of who I am that I cant help but to always speak about it… So, I’m sorry if it gets a little redundant (Lol!) It’s just in me. This YouTube video is something I listen to almost everyday just to STAY encouraged and really keep faith and all the things God is capable of on my brain… I hope you enjoy this post, as well as your day! Muah!

jamiedreamsbig.com turns 1!!

Hello! It’s been a year… It’s really been a year! I can’t believe it went by so fast but I am grateful for this blog and all that I am able to share and the people I am able to reach. When you have even a slither of a thought and you feel like it’s something that God has given you- act on it! Forget about all the people and even small voices in the back of your mind telling you “you won’t be able to do that,” “you won’t have enough time,” or “nobody wants to hear what you have to say…” God will make a way for all those things to come together and your gift will surely make room for you. This blog started with a very VERY small idea of how I could do all of the things I love simultaneously because I was having trouble dedicating time to everything and would often “binge” on one or two at a time and end up neglecting the others. It’s worked so far and has grown into a YouTube and Facebook fan page… I’m so excited to see how far it will go!

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I cannot say thank you enough for all of the love and support I’ve received!! I’ve learned so much over this year and trust me, it will show in my upcoming posts so stay tuned!! Hugs, kisses, and a lot of love… JNB

Time to talk…

Hello!! I hope all of you are well… okay so, last week I made a video geared towards the youth but really for everyone… I  posted it to my YouTube channel (jamiedreamsbig) and I wanted to share it with you. It’s one of those type of pull your friend on the side conversations about self worth and I REALLY think this conversation needs to be opened up for discussion. I have literally been disgusted just thinking about the lack of self worth people are walking around with… And the things people do to gain attention and “love” not fully understanding that some attention just isn’t worth having and the type of things love requires would never include belittling yourself for someone’s enjoyment. Please watch, share, and subscribe to my YouTube channel.

 

So… What do YOU think? To comment click the title and that will take you to a page with this post alone. From there just scroll to the bottom and comment!

Do what love does!!

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
New International Version (NIV)
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

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Notice what’s missing in the skyline of my favorite city? If you’re thinking the Twin Towers you would be correct…

Since before I can remember New York has been a part of my obsession!!  The same streets that I chased after my dreams (at a VERY fast speed!) trying to live and survive were once filled with people leaping out of buildings and the smoke and debris of the collapsing Twin Towers.  I personally think that God had something bigger in mind when lives were lost and others were forever changed but on this day 12 years later its hard to fathom what would suffice if I was one of the people grieving the loss of a friend or loved one. One thing I am confident in is that God doesn’t make any mistakes and that ALL things really do work together for the good for those that love him. As our country (and many others) pauses today in reflection hold tight to those you love dearly… Forgive, forget and move on! I can just imagine how many went to bed angry at a husband on this day 12 years ago and stormed out the door thinking they would have the chance to get it right later… how many walked into the Pentagon to get a coffee from Dunkin’ Donuts rushing passed someone in need of spare change, or how many boarded a plane without saying I love you. One of the many, Many, MANY things I learned at the acting studio I attended last year was “if your character is sexy don’t try to “be” sexy but do what sexy does”… And this lesson can surely be applied to life. Not just in the sexy situation but just think of how different life and maybe even the world would be if we did what love does… If we were patient, kind, slow to anger, and lived to honor among all of the other things the bible states. Whether it is this lesson or another, look for the lesson in all of this and don’t let the lives lost by some and sacrificed by others be in vain.

Remember 9/11… Live and Love like it’s your last chance because as we all know, it truly could be.

Tuesday Morning Reflections…

Hello Beautiful people… Well, as you can tell from the date- what you just read was a post I did nearly a year ago. I am a note taker… To the fullest! I take notes in classes, in my bible during church, even while I’m reading books and plays I keep a pencil with me to circle ideas and jot down questions or random ideas. And as i have confessed before, I LOVE buying cards!! The idea of writing down my feelings at a certain time and giving them to someone is golden to me… but the best part of notes isn’t necessarily what you immediately gain. It’s when you find a note, card, or random quote that you wrote a while ago and you’re able to presently identify with those feelings and get through them because of something that was thought or purchased long ago. I LOVE that!! I honestly can’t tell you how many times I’ve had this happen and I feel like maybe some of these things can help someone else so, I’m going to start posting these reflections. The first of many was posted on this blog nearly a year ago… Its short and sweet but will always hold some truth.

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Everyone will have their own way of dealing with things but the important thing is to not let someone else’s addiction weigh you down so much to the point that you’re going crazy yourself!! It’s so hard to show tough love sometimes and ignore the name calling and fights that in most cases are sure to come but it’s so worth it. TRUST ME! If they aren’t ready to change then you will have to be the one to take the higher road… Create a change that allows you to still love them but that also isn’t going to put you in the fire. When you’re constantly being hurt by lies and manipulation it’s hard to think about it but addicts go through a lot too! Especially the addict that WANTS to be clean but is truly struggling with the illness. Just think about the guilt it causes when this drug or thing has taken over your life to the point that you’re stealing and lying and doing so many things that you don’t want to for a drug you don’t even really want but your body now NEEDS! It tough… Until the addict is REALLY ready to change a lot of what you say will likely go over their head but continue to encourage them and pray for discernment on when to say something and what to say. When you don’t have the words to speak God will give you what to say… And when you do have a few choice words that won’t help the situation AT ALL (been there, TRUST ME! Lol) God wont let it get past being a thought.  It will all work out in time… But until then don’t be afraid to make some changes and be happy with life!! Your change may be what finally pulls them through… HUGS AND LOVE, JNB