Sober Saturday: Kyle’s Story

My name is Kyle and I’m and alcoholic.  If only I knew how important that statement would become in my life ten years ago, I could have saved myself from so much destruction and pain.  Since the age of 16 I have used drugs and alcohol regularly – at first to temporarily escape the frustrations and insecurities of adolescence, but eventually I found myself having to use just to get out of bed in the morning.  From the second I woke up my whole existence became centered around getting loaded, every thought, every action, every word had the ulterior motive of getting myself as far away from sober as possible.  I had been entirely consumed by addiction at the age of 20.  Completely oblivious to the agony in and around me, I continued to reach new lows the following years, crossing lines I never imagined I would.

Meanwhile, I had been grievously wounding my family who had done nothing but love and support me unconditionally since birth.  Really good people.  It started with little lies and manipulations to try and save face.  But soon enough however, I was raiding medicine cabinets only to google a medications potential of giving me a buzz. The results usually showed that my loved ones were dealing with some serious health issues, but instead of being concerned for their wellbeing, my take away was, “well this won’t do anything for me… Now which way was the label facing again?”

I would regularly find myself thumbing through my mom’s wallet, deciding how much money I could take without her noticing.  While recovering from a surgery, she would rely on me to go the store to get us groceries which I would gladly do because that meant that she would give me her debit card which I could use at the ATM on the way back.  While sleeping, she would shriek in pain do to the surgery, but even that wasn’t enough for me to not steal her pain medication any chance I could.  The other members of my family received equally terrible and dishonest behavior from me.

I always thought myself one of the good guys, someone who would positively impact the lives of those around him. When I reached my 20’s that expectation to live a life of purpose began to deteriorate.  I was a drug addict and didn’t care about anything or anyone outside of myself.  I betrayed every single moral instilled in me growing up for the pitiful life I had made for myself.  Suicidal and depressed, losing job after job, selling my life to pawn shops, stealing, lying, cheating, scamming, you name it I wasn’t above anything when it came to getting a fix.  I had become something truly heinous and grotesque, a feral creature. For the first time I hit rock bottom and it hurt.  That’s when it happened.

On October 20th 2014 I found out about a program located in Los Angeles, the Liberty House of L&B Recovery systems.  Unaware of what would become of it and nowhere to turn, I packed what was left of my life and headed to the city of angels. The program quickly taught me about integrity and willingness to do the right thing. I would soon uncover many truths about my addiction and how it merely was a side effect of the real problem, me.  The program moved to Kentucky in February and I happily followed knowing how truly unique and special this place was.

Today, I wake up excited for the day ahead.  I work a great job to pay my own way in sobriety.  I have an amazing support group and am surrounded by friends I wouldn’t change for the world.  My relationship with my family continues to get better.   When my head hits the pillow at night I feel good about myself, knowing that I tried my absolute best to do the right thing that day,  knowing I don’t have to spend one more day feeling like I used to.  Thanks to L&B Recovery I have my life back and a future to look forward to and for this I will be forever grateful.  If you or a loved one is in the grips of addiction please know that there is help and authentic happiness is in reach. Contact the Liberty Ranch!

Introducing Haskell

Hey guys! I hope you have enjoyed your weekend and I certainly hope that I’ve contributed to that in some way…

Well, here we are… the last day of the weekend of posts where I’m showing you some of the frames that I received in my Warby Parker Home Try-on Program AND the shoes that I purchased in my first JustFab order. I have to say, I love this look also because it was very minimal and comfortable but the frames and the shoes jazzed it up just enough.

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The name of these frames is Haskell and they are in the Crystal color. I think they are so perfect for Summer Festivals and casual looks that might look a little drab without cool accessories to give it a little something extra.

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And while we’re on the subject of accessories let me just say that I love accessories but they aren’t always very conventional… it may be something like my HAIR that I use to add to the overall look especially if I’m going to be out and about and don’t want to bother with bags or even jewelry.

It’s a simple style… 2 French braids but the fact that the parts aren’t even adds a little something different to the look.

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The dress is from Forever21 and is so comfy I went back online to order another one!

The blush colored top is from Urban Outfitters

And making an appearance for the final time this weekend are the Jedelia shoes from JustFab. Overall I like the style of the shoes… they are cute and extremely versatile but they aren’t comfortable. I guess getting what you pay for means quality a lot more than it does style and maybe this is why the shoes are ALWAYS so inexpensive. I mean, I’ll wear them… but I wont be running to them regularly.

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That’s all folks! I hope you like these type of posts. I’ll be exploring lots of Fashion and different ways to showcase it here on the blog. If you have any great ideas or suggestions on what you want to see please let me know.

What Summer fashion trends and accessories are you being torn away from as Fall approaches?

Join Us!

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“We are best friends not because we always want to be but because we’ve recognized that

our friendship is about something bigger than us!”

-Jamie

My best friend and I have been through it and back and we are sharing parts of our friendship testimony and hoping to inspire some of you that no matter how bad things can get sometimes, if your friendship is one of those things put together by God, there is nothing that can separate it. Join us! Were hoping to hear from you during this laid back call where we will talk, laugh, pray, strengthen our friendships, and hopefully build new ones.

The kick off is next Thursday, August 13th at 8pm.

Don’t forget to bring your friends! We cant wait to talk to you…

Muah

Great News!!

Hey guys!! If you follow me on any Social Media outlets you’ve already seen my announcement about the upcoming   “Pieces of Me Tour” I’m doing. I’m so excited!

Tour FlyerI’ll be speaking about my life and how different experiences I’ve had ultimately have made me who i am. It’s something ive known I was supposed to be doing for a while now and I’m not sitting on it anymore! I’ll be in a city near you soon so be on a look out for the dates. Muah!

Also… now is a good time to hit that like button on Facebook or Follow on Instagram. I usually get information posted there so much more quickly… Love ya

Excuse the absence…

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Hey my loves!! Please forgive the lack of my presence here on the blog…

I’ve always known that doing theater (and most other forms of art) is either feast or famine and I am currently overflowing with opportunities. (Thank You God!! You’re the best thing yet!!) I’m going to come up with a clever way to do EVERYTHING my little brain can dream up including regularly posting to the blog but right now IM WORN OUT!! Lol. I’ve got some really exciting news to share with you real soon so stayed tuned!! In the meantime, spread the word about jamiedreamsbig.com and check out my Facebook and YouTube pages. MUAH

Lately…

Hello and Happy Sunday!!

How did you sleep? Well, although I wouldn’t be able to same the same for myself, I hope you got plenty of rest.

Lately I haven’t been sleeping well because I’ve been up at night dreaming. Yes, awake and dreaming! (Seems I’ve got it backwards… I know) God has fulfilled SO many of his promises to me in just these few months of the New Year that I’ve been up praying/thanking him and excited about what’s to come. SO excited that I can’t sleep. Lol.

Everything isn’t perfect BY FAR but sometimes we have to look at what God has already done to stay encouraged and know by faith that he will fulfill every promise. I’m overwhelmed with blessings right now! Lol. He flipped it on me a little. He’s funny like that. He’s good like that.

If it hadn’t happened yet keep praying and believing! It will happen right in time. Be ready!

Good day my loves… Muah, jnb

*By the way- I know I’ve been slacking on posting… It goes back to that while overwhelmed with blessings thing… Lol. My apologies. I’ll get better. I promise