I want to start this off by saying that I am not exempt from going through things, having bad days, times where I doubt my whole existence or any of the regular problems we all have just because I have this inspirational blog. In fact, sometimes I feel that I go through more because I’ve allowed myself to be so transparent in hopes of inspiring someone… It’s just that I TRY my hardest to see a slither of Hope or something more than just a messed up situation when things happen.
So, with all that out the way- let’s dive into this question.
A question I’ve seen and heard many times before… What do you guys think? Is God just giving us what we ask for? I think the way people can sometimes view God is a BIG problem. A magician, a genie… Waiting to grant our wishes. Hmmm… Well, I think it’s more about the opportunity to show God and ourselves that we really do want and really can handle what we’ve asked for. As I said before, I am well acquainted with this question but lately it’s really stuck!
All my life I’ve dealt with being misunderstood but lately it’s been RIDICULOUS! Lol. I’ve been so frustrated (with myself mostly) because the things I do and say with pure thoughts are received as angry and sarcastic (among other things) Finally I broke. Completely. I prayed and I said “God what am I doing wrong…” ” Why are my intentions on the smallest things twisted?” “IM NOT AN ANGRY PERSON!!” Lol. Yes, I was upset. Lol. I said “God these are all the things I don’t want to be, these are all the things I just prayed my way out of… IM A HAPPY PERSON” And of course, almost immediately I felt something tugging at me saying “Prove It”
I realized that all of these things are happening so that I can prove myself.
Fine Jamie… You say you’re not sarcastic? Let’s see how you respond to this. You want you friendships/relationships to be better? Hmmm, here’s a stumbling block for you and your friend… We’ll see how real the friendship is. You say you’re patient now? Let’s see how you handle the things you desire taking A LOT longer than you expect. Oh really… You’re not angry? Let’s see if this doesn’t make you flip.
Yep! That’s been my life lately…
Now, I will say I’ve come a LOOOONG way from where I was but I’ve still got a lot to do. All of these things coming at me are my opportunity to grow and improve and to show people that I really am a different person. You really do have to be careful what you ask for. IF it lines up with God’s will he will likely give it to you but it won’t be without work!!
Are you REALLY ready for what you’ve asked for? I guess the real question is are you really ready to do what it takes to get what you’ve asked for? Don’t give up on your dreams, friendships, happiness and improving yourself just because problems keep being thrown your way. The fact the you’ve even been given the opportunity to show your growth says a lot! Take full advantage of these opportunities God is giving you. And even if you don’t get it exactly right the first time or two or six… Get better each time. Grow a little everyday!
I’m not where I used to be. But if I can’t showcase that when things happen no one will know but me. That will cause MORE problems because now I’ll have to defend myself and my growth. No… I’d rather take a different route. It’ll be hard but I’m going to seize EVERY opportunity I get and in turn I won’t have to announce my improvements because instead they’ll be seen.
MUAH!! I love my followers! I really do. Thanks for listening…